little dreams in a big dream world...

we all live in a big dream world. A world of wonders where almost anything is possible or soon will be, a world with quotes like " dream big then work towards that dream". They, of course, are referring to dreams like " I wanna be an astronaut", or " I want to own a mansion, and fancy cars" or " I want to change the world by doing....".  My problem is...I don't dream, at all. I don't have any aspirations, I even hate the question " what do you want for your birthday? Christmas?" Etc because I don't know. I don't want things beyond my basic needs. I don't crave the newest iphone, I don't look at a pair of shoes and think " man those would look awesome on me"! I am low income so I have wished for a full refridgerator, money for utilities, winter gear etc.  This frustrates my husband who is at the other end of things. He is a grandiose dreamer. His dreams include owning his own semi truck and not having to make payments, owning an acreage, starting a charity that would buy houses for all the homeless in our city and allowing them to just work off the cost etc. why do I not dream? Normal people want things, dream for things, I don't  know why this is such a hard task for me. Even when I try to dream, to think of something I want, I end up wanting things for my kids, or things we need that seem like I will never get. I have been thinking about this a lot lately and my theory is that perhaps I have been conditioned not to dream, by life in general. I have been let down so many times, my dad would get us all excited to go hiking or camping or something then wake up the morning to leave and decide to not go because he didn't want to. I was abused as a child as well and I'm sure that didn't help. I have been low income my entire life as well. I think my dream function is broken. I don't know if I even want to work on fixing it. I think for now I will let my hubby dream for us both and save me the trouble. 

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